Portishead - "chase the tear" specially made for international human rights day. 12/10



however, "the rip" is still my all time favorite



also.... The Magnetic Fields new album "Realism" comes out 1/26/2010

some mornings are just so filled with love that even my 7 year old notices.

"mom, today feels just like a great movie, come dance with me!"

now that i have a laptop that can actually support netflix's instant play. i have become an addict. and because of this i am very tempted to buy the $80.00 gizmo that will allow me to watch instant movies on my tv. i may have to buy another tv. oh yeah i am living the american dream. guess what... my boyfriend loves football, too.

my stoopid butt can't find his 1st grade photo. :/ grrr

i think i am about to start freaking out screaming and crying.
zeke has gotten into trouble at school twice in the last week. both times being on the playground. today after he was bad, he started throwing up. the principal realized that it was most likely zeke's nerves, than him actually being sick. my son is a sensitive boy. however, he never flippin' talks to us. i left work to go pick him up and spoke with his teacher. i found out that his one and only friend Alena, has moved. which killed me. i remember being his age, and not having friends. i would get picked on all the time. i wasn't pretty like the other girls, i didn't have the nice clothes. i preferred to read books, than play jump rope. zeke however likes to have friends... and now he has to make new friends... which he is terrible at. he is terrible at it because he likes to be so completely and utterly bossy, and when he doesn't get his way he gets frustrated and calls peoples names and/or gets physical. i want to believe that because of how different zeke is, and how often he gets picked on, that this is why he won't listen to me and won't improve his behavior. but then i think i am searching for an excuse.

i wish i could quit my job and stay home more to take care of him, and get him to a counselor to find out why he isn't talking to us, why he's begun lying so much, why he won't listen... if he was 12 or 13 i would say some of this is normal, but he is 7... i'm just so confused.

found out tonight that my grandpa is in the hospital has been having chest pains, and has internal bleeding from an unknown source. he has already been given a pint of blood, and they are planning on giving him another pint, and his blood pressure is very high.

and work was stressing me out. meh. blah. meh.

then i found out that most everyone failed the mid-term in family law, i didn't go last week because i had bronchitis.

this is not so good times... but definitely not as bad as last year.

i can see the light at the end of the tunnel... i can... school will soon not be running my life.

okay work seems to be stressing me out. and i am forgetting how to breathe and calm down. any of you have some great strategies i should be utilizing to remind myself, that this is all just a job?


thanks

hehehe... also i'm really excited, i'm going to be in california in march. sacramento and bay area vicinity, specifically. i bought the tickets in august. for $811.00 for kent, zeke and i. the price now is up to $1300.00, planning ahead is sometimes worth it.

movie suggestion: "Cashback"

there is a little more female nudity than i normally watch but it's really good.
just thought i'd put it out there.

so... kent, zeke, and i are all moved in... and i almost have the place set up to my liking. i've gotten really in to have glass bottles/vases... so here are some pics of my two main bookshelves... in different lighting. also, my apartment building was built in the 1960's, so it is rather old... and for some reason when they built it, they decided to have built-in curio cabinets... at least i think that is what it would be called. it works for extra storage, of even more books... and i hope soon to get some board games.

( photo's )


i'm really enjoying my new home.... i'll post some more photo's soon...
i'm excited, i found my camera battery charger during the move!!! wee!!!

i need some new music suggestions to check out... i'm so out of it with moving, having been in class... and not working at a record store anymore. that i suck big fat donkey stuff'us

so please music suggestions!!!!